PASTEL SERIES

"Eyes Should Go"

Artist: francorigor
:0n board - Oil Pastel
May 29 2012

"It may seem so fine yet a single string is only intertwine" - francorigor

I Can See Clearly:The Eulogy

         Listening to Athlete's black swan got me crawling down on my sensitive side and hit my emotion big time. The singer/songwriter Joel Pott dedicate this song to his late grandfather in which i imagine also singing this song to my late grandfather. Losing someone who has been so special in your life, who has been so kind, who has been there for u is like the most greatest unfair reality treatment of life. A traumatic scene. We can't do anything about these uncertain things, these are all part of our lives connected in random circumstances which you never wish to happen of course, part of which life's inconvenient truth. We are all vulnerable, we are all candidates and nobody is granted with immunity. Some people can handle it thus for others often leaves a traumatic experience and having a hard time moving on. My Grandfather was about to celebrate his 90th birthday a month before he passed away. He served as a local (Barangay) council official several years and quite gain the respect to many people. A little too far away from their home, mother could only take us to their house several times every month. Few of stories i can tell about his younger years but unequivocally can i say his a good guy, a good person, a good friend. Someone whom you can share your jokes and laughter whenever your around. Some of what i remember; Few times he was bought to the hospital because of his heart. His heart started to weaken due to his age and before that i can tell you he's still firing up some cigarettes. A cigarette brand named "Champion" was his brand and later switch to "Fortune" (cigarette talks). Some part of his body also started  relapsing. His left eyelid fold started to close by itself, maybe because of his age some muscles or nerve did stop functioning though both of his eyes were still good. He would sometime make fun of by lifting it with his thumb and index finger and at the same time while twitching it he would say ("MANAKIT YA PA NAMAN") means "i can still see".
-I told him before i went here in uae that "i did some portrait drawings of you", and he just smile and laugh like appreciating. Before i leave Philippines i gave him my work, put it in a frame, signed in and placed the date. What really caught his attention while staring at my drawing was his left eye, first he ask me ("IKA BA ING GINAWA KETI?") means" are you the one who made this?, then i answered ("OPO YAKU PO") yes i did, then he said ("IKA PALA ING GINAWA OT ALI ME PA SELESE ITANG MATA KU ADYANG KING LITRATU MU") means "Your the one who made this but why didn't you try fixing the eyes? so that it'll look good, even in pictures only?", it was a laughing moment for us.

-I told him that i'm gonna miss him and that we'll see again after two years and that you always stay strong which i know he is, Before i leave i gently embrace him once again in his bamboo chair with his back quite on a stooped  position, whispering ("PASIKAN KAYU HA") means Be Strong - Neither that i thought, it was our last conversation, it was the last embrace, It was the last encounter. It was the last moment we were together, barely It was the last of the last.

It was one of the most inconsolable morning call from my mom as she grieves telling me that, "he just passed away". Knowing the chance and probabilities of attending his funeral is too low. Our distance kept us back down on our feet lamented and dismay.

We will always remember you apo (lolo), you will always live inside us your grandsons and daughters. Our Mentor, Our Counselor. Yezzer Your Definitely a miss.